Love-flow!

I'm upset. 

It's just sooo irritating to be short-tempered! And to not let anyone know it! :S I'm feeling like a caged up animal right now and feel like smashing apart everything in sight! And I have no clue why I'm feeling the

 way I do! I guess that am bugged coz I'm feeling sort of helpless and tired of

 fighting as well. Helpless to do anything and tired of fighting and pushing myself to achieve something! Pessimistic? Yes!

It feels like I don't have any sort of control over myself and what I'm doing. Actually, no! It feels like I have total control over everything that I'm doing, but that I'm doing the wrong things! :(

As for the usual ponderings about love, I've decided it exists. Not only that, it's the only thing in the world that does exist [and no, not just the lovey dovey type!]. And that some

times, people and their love is meant to be present in your life only briefly, and at other times, you're just meant to love someone unconditionally.

I was reading the other day where it mentioned why people choose to be born in families where there are issues like drugs, absence of a member of the family-emotional or phyical absence. And it did strike me that it's because we need to learn a very valuable lesson of unconditional love. In fact, the book said that it was the ultimate lesson that a soul needs to learn and is essential. I think that's why I trust and love people so easily and am able to get over the pain so easily as well [touchwood!]. Absence of a parent or even a sibling does teach you a lot. I honestly think that despite my short temper, at times, I do love everyone that I know . . . or don't know! And even when it comes to the romantic type of love, I find it easy enough to love someone. Coz I can see that there is something to learn from each person and the flow of love is just so natural that it's quite hard to stop it [trust me, it's tough! I'm doing whatever I can to stop it!]. And yet, I know that if and when it doesn't work out [like, 100% surety!] it wouldn't really hurt me that much! Coz I sent out love to a person and to the universe. And if the love didn't come back from the same source, it's okay! Coz love is limitless! You can give love each living moment of your life and there would be plenty left over! It just seems so easy to love a person! It flows so naturally! And stopping it feels ridiculous as well. Hey, I just realized, that I'm probably not gonna gain anything from not falling in love! I guess I'll just let it flow freely. Esp since now I know that love, or the absence of it's reciprocation from that source, can't hurt me! Revelation - love cannot ever hurt you. No matter what happens! Your beliefs, perceptions, desires, changes are more likely to cause hurt than love would. Coz love is a feeling. . . a positive feeling that flows limitlessly! 

Somehow that caged animal inside me is feeling quite pacified now! And seemingly has a nice love-ish feeling growing in the heart! 

I accept that I love everyone in this cosmos. And yes, I even accept that love can flow uni-directionally and I'm not afraid anymore. :)