Channels are changing and clearing!

Day 3. . . Manveer still gone with the new recs and I'm missing each one of them! And it's just day 0 of the conference!

Went to office. . . couple of EB members are ill. :( We still sorted out a lot of stuff in the office though! Then went off for lunch. . . and a very interesting conversation ensued with another EB member post lunch, back at office. :)
Then came home. With a back ache that just seemed to increase every minute and mom didn't let me go for football and I slept off [not intentionally! I'm not usually the type who won't fight!].
And now, been chatting with yet another old friend of mine who I haven't met properly for over a year! Planning to meet up with him later this month for sure. For a full day [pakka promise hai!]. It's been agezzzz since we met up ya!
So yeah, here's the brief up of the day -
cleaned office
lunch out
conversation and cleaning
home with a backache [body ache to be precise!]
couple of updates
and now back to bed. with the laptop and plans for Delhi this month!

Other than that, well I've noticed a few interesting things about myself in the past day or so. After I've started to keep a diary to keep all random thoughts in, the thoughts have actually decreased and I'm able to focus on what I do want to think! And I think that's a pretty cool thing! Coz usually my mind is way too full of chatter and random repetitive thoughts. Also, it's helping me make opinions. Even saying a simple thing like 'I like red walls' is an opinion. And by now, I have some very fixed goals and opinions! And affirmations! Like I wanna study and clear my room. I need to change a couple of things about myself. And that there are some very simple things in life that I like! I've also written about certain illusions that I want myself to remember. ~Only love is real. When we love people, we see reality but when we focus on their flaws and negatives, that's the real illusion! People do have a tendency to believe it the other way around! ~There are no coincidences, luck or chance. Everything is a response to your energy and your needs and requirements for experiences! This is one really powerful statement coz it enables you to accept current realities and yet, doesn't make you sit back and think that destiny will lead you everywhere without having to lift a finger! It's because of your energy that it all happens and it is not luck!

Ever since my mind's been having space in it, there have been periods when everything goes blank! Ummm... not blank exactly, just that all chatter stops and I see everything from a little further away. It's like being in deep meditation with your eyes open. It feels a little disoriented but really alert and aware at the same time! It feels like the world has stopped for me and I can see and hear everything going on around me and that the channel from my heart, mind and soul is so clear that it is silent. I think this is the first step. Of what? I dunno. . . those words just felt appropriate. I know I want the next step to have music in that channel and harmony. And yes, the best thing I like about writing a blog is that I discover so much! 70% of what I write is stuff that I discover at the time of writing! :)

So yeah, here I am, going in and out of that consciously sub-conscious state and utterly unaware of what is happening to me and where I'm being led!
All I know is that I love life. I love love. And I love being in a life I love!
God, tussi great ho! :D
P.S. I'm visualizing NLDS as well! It's not something I forget at any point of time! But I know there must be a reason for my staying here. I just don't know it fully yet!