Sometimes it's good, and sometimes it's. . . well, . . . not good!! But it's always interesting. So much going on in the mind that probably shouldn't, and so much that should! :)
Thinking of relationships with specific people and how they seem to have evolved, or devolved. Changed and become irreplaceable, or changed and become meaningless.
I've come to learn that you don't always like people, even if they are nice to you. Indeed, they may be the ones you mistrust the most. And yet, there are people who won't really say much, and do things that could break your trust, but you just seem to trust them even more.
I've also seen that I prefer it when people are blunt and outspoken when they need to make a point, coz it doesn't leave room for ambiguity. But I do love exchanging 'significant looks' which say more than an hour's worth of conversation.
People need time to evolve in a team. No matter how good/bad you have been before in n number of teams, each team will take time to settle and find equilibrium. And each team is made up of individuals who need to be on their journey of self-discovery also and keep the balance.
Love is something I will always believe in, though I'm yet to witness the forever-kinda-love for anyone in a romantic sort of way. Sure, there are people who I love, just not in thatttt way. .. or not in the forever kinda way!
In the end, excuses are shallow dismissible things. They will seem like the stupidest things on earth for a non-achievement.
I know I'm changing. I know it. And it's creating a whirlwind within me, of surety and unsurety. . Mixing all opposites and making them co-exist. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. It's like being in 'maaya'. Everything 'almost' exists. It's doesn't completely exist, or not exist. . . but it seems to almosttt exist!
I can't decide whether I think that people are hopelessly stupid, or overwhelmingly smart. Perhaps they are just confused, or not bothered about what they want enough to do something about it. Perhaps they are both, depending on their mood and what they actually want to do about it.
I never thought a target, and it's non-achievement could hurt me. Not so much at least.
I don't know who my best friend is!! :S :S
Extremely random entry, I know. Just a lot of its and bits going on in the head. :)
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