Started of dreadfully, then turned to good and ending up on an average note.
Not a day of any revelation, but one where the previous ones were not contested and no doubts came to the mind, thus creating happiness. :)
And oh-my-god, I didn't get distracted during my whole exam today!! :O Perhaps somewhere in my subconscious I really do like accounts!
And I do think I'm falling out of love, and I'm still happy (na, not in the same way, of course). And not love, actually, just the crush-ish kinda part of it, since the love existed before and always will. :)
And I'm not like you, not quite so god-like who everyone worships. I'm quite mortal, and to be honest, I don't think I'd like to be quite so out-there as everyone else is. Sure, I think I do want it, but I don't think I would.
Also, life has started having certain other things which seem important now (and I have no idea whyy!), like home, and family and being good-ish, sleeping on time etc. .. Y'know, the good things a person should do. The weird part is, that I really want to do them now! Perhaps it's a part of growing up. :) Welcome, but rather different since it's kinda demonstrative!
I saw a video and I'm still having some thoughts about it. So if you have option A and B, and a week to choose, you'll forever live in the indecision that perhaps the other one was better, no matter if you choose A or B! And it's going to last even after the week, and you'll never be happy.
But if you have only Option A(or B), and you choose it, you're happy. Always.
And you're happy even if you're told in one instant to choose one and it shall be irrevocable.
So technically, options make us unhappy since we continue to fret over what-could-have-been rather than what is. Rather stupid and pointless.
So what if there is only one option and you know it won't work? You know the existence of it (thus the desire to have it) but you are convinced of the imposssiblity of having it. Is one still happy? Curious. Although, I do think that I would stay happy, since it's as good as not having an option, and one would be happy in other forms.
I know the only real problem I have is that I'm content with what is, and I know I'll be happy no matter what. Not jumping-on-the-walls-shouting-with-glee kinda happy, but content and happy with what is and what isn't. :)
So therefore, no matter where it goes from now and even if temporary happiness clouds over, I know I'll still be eventually happy. And that makes me happy. :)
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