Happy shiny and slightly introspective

So life is interesting and happy shiny one again. :)

Getting over some things, finding new aspects of myself and making peace with the emotions that aren't ready to go just yet. :)

I've always been freaked out by kids, and not knowing what to do around them. Well, that's changed for sure! Teaching part time, I can see a whole different world. The transparent and pure expressions on their faces and the absolutely adorable things they do have got me falling in love with each one of them. Even when I get exasperated with them! It's my happy shiny hour of the day.

Been missing gym, in more ways than one. :( But starting again from tomorrow morning! :D

I'm realizing that I'm quite dispassionate/detached from the things that go on around me. sure, I notice them and acknowledge them, but reacting to them isn't something I do too often. And feeling guilty or regretting something is just not a part of who I am anymore. What's the point of guilt anyway? If you didn't care at that time, what5 will feeling guilty do for you now? It's over and done with, so you might as well sit back and enjoy the memories. ;)

Also, since it's winter nl, I absolutely loveeee soaking in the sun! It feels like I'm in the perfect world in the perfect place everrr! :)

And yes, I also realize that I am quite detached from the people I love too. Not always though. Sometimes I miss everyone terribly and feel crazily happy after seeing them after 2-3 days! Maybe I'm just not as expressive as I used to be or it's just a phase, or I'm in too much of a happy shiny mode! I'm not sure why I'm so darn happy, but I am. and it doesn't have too much to do with external circumstances.

Oh, and as for 'you', yes I still care for you a lot. Still pretty much in love, but slowly getting over it. And I'm at peace with wherever it goes or doesn't go. :)