Pyar Impossible!

So there's this movie, and this guy says "She should love me for who I am, not because I love her!"

And the movie is called Pyar Impossible. :)

And though I'm not a geek, and he's not the hottest guy on the block, it's all still impossible.

And this isn't a fairytale, and I'm not a princess. This isn't a movie either. Nothing is going to change, and I'm not going to change it!! ::sigh::

Sarcasm 101 !

Day 0

Btw, someone said to me that a person who is not fit is essentially unable to manage his/her life properly. Which is true, right?
Coz if we can't even take care of our own health, then it doesn't matter what else we're doing for ourselves. I think I'm going to take it up seriously. The message is coming from all directions and it's coming loud and clear!

Here's to a healthier lifestyle (THIS time it's for real, honest!)

Time to start with Day 0, right after a sleepless night (stupid mind/heart!)

Stay Beautiful

Cory's eyes are like a jungle
He smiles, it's like the radio
He whispers songs into my window
In words that nobody knows

There's pretty girls on every corner
That watch him as he's walking home
Saying, does he know
Will you ever know?

You're beautiful, every little piece, love
Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone
Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh, but if it don't, stay beautiful

Corey finds another way to be
The highlight of my day
I'm taking pictures with my mind
So I can save 'em for a rainy day

It's hard to make a conversation
When he's taking my breath away
I should say
'Hey, by the way'

You're beautiful, every little piece, love
Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone
Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh, but if it don't, stay beautiful


If you and I are a story
That never gets told
If what you are is a daydream
I'll never get to hold, at least you'll know

You're beautiful, every little piece, love
Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone
Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my front door
Oh, but if it don't

Will you stay beautiful
A beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful
A beautiful, beautiful?

Oh, but if it don't
Stay beautiful
Stay beautiful

Soon!

Soon. . .
soon I shall convince myself to care for u in a more not-in-love way. Of course I'll love you just as much, but in a different way. Soon.

Soon I shall get some work, and earn a bit. Enough to get some work ex and be able to support my expenditures at least.

Soon I shall figure out a healthy life, and get it on track!

Soon I'll do something awesome in this world.

I'm quite sure about everything except for the first one. That one's gonna need all my persuasion skills and skewed logic! :) But soon. . . because I should, not because I want to. Coz I don't want to stop loving you.

Of life purposes, happiness, desires and moksha

Heard two people talking today about the purpose of life. Interesting discussion really, though it's reality to me is much simpler than the direction the conversation went. :)

The purpose of life is happiness. To find our inner light while being in this human form, and become one with the universe.

Of course happiness is internal, and not stuck in material things. But knowing that is one thing, experiencing it is quite another. And the really happy happiness would come eventually after going through zillions of emotions, and realizing that happiness was within all the time. Even though we're searching for it, it's right there and we don't know it. External factors affect it of course, but that's just temporary. ;)

Desires are part and parcel of our human-ness, but it is possible to be desireless as well. (Although many times it is our desires that keep us moving forward in life and build up who we are). And some things which may seem like desires are actually inherent qualities that make up the person. It's a way of life, and they are 'detached desires' coz it's not the centre of existence for them. They understand there's more to life.

While we are here, in the midst of an experience, it is hard to really understand what is going on. But these are soul lessons, and they're a part of the soul's journey here. :)

As for Moksha/Nirvana, we're all heading towards it. At different paces, on different tracks, in different ways, but all of us are going towards realizing the light within and our true spirit forms. Because that's why we're here. That's why we're here in the earth-school. Till we get all the lessons right, study study study!

Life is seeming so uncomplicated and relaxed these days (even though in a lot of ways it's NOT!), and I'm enjoying this way of life. Probably soon there would be a different phase where everything seems irritating, maddening, hopeless and sad, but then that's another story. Wouldn't it be monotonous to stay absolutely the same forever? No growth, nothing. One can get tired even of being happy, I suppose.

So meanwhile life goes on, towards learning new soul lessons, getting closer to moksha, and consistent happiness. And, of course, as few desires. :)

Reflections of a Skyline

I think I've posted this before, but I still like it. Thought of it again today.


And I'd tell you the worst of me, and try to give you the best of me because. . . you don't deserve any less.

If I could, I would tell you that I don't only love you, but also who I am because I love u!

And I do not expect you to love me in that way, n I wish I could tell you that!!

And I'm not sure I would tell u, directly.

Drunk on words!

More from Rumi!!
It's one of those phases where one feels drunk by mere words said by someone else. .


(i)
I know at last I know nothing;
Ignorance on such a scale, dazzles and frees my soul.
Child-wonder becomes my daily bread
Broken for me each passing moment.


(ii)
There's another language beyond language
Another heaven beyond heaven and hell
Our hearts live by another heart
What we are shines from a placeless place

(iii)
Don't talk to me of 'heaven', heaven's
for believers,
Long ago I abandoned believing for knowing.
I don't need any heaven when I have You here
Here with You is the only heaven i need.

Love is Reckless (Rumi)

Rumi's poetry is awesome! The right one at the right time makes you feel like you are in another world, drunk on the intensity on what you feel!

Love is Reckless
Love is reckless; not reason.
Reason seeks a profit.
Love comes on strong, consuming herself, unabashed.

Yet, in the midst of suffering,
Love proceeds like a millstone,
hard surfaced and straightforward.

Having died to self interest,
she risks everything and asks for nothing.
Love gambles away every gift God bestows.

Without cause God gave us Being;
without cause, gave it back again.
Gambling yourself away is beyond any religion.

Religion seeks grace and favor,
but those who gamble these away are God's favorites,
for they neither put God to the test
nor knock at the door of gain and loss.

~RUMI

Madly irreplacably irrevocably!

It's almost amusing how loving you almost never gets me in a tizzy and upset. I'm not too sure about why I wanted to get over it in the first place!
Being in love keeps me happy, makes me a better person, adds some reality in life, and stops the blandness from setting in. Why would I even want to get over it? You're an awesome person, and I love you for being that. Simple enough. :)

On the plus (or minus) side, there will always be greater problems in daily life than unrequited love, and those are the ones that tear life apart. Wish there was a way to get life figured out for a while!

Perhaps I am madly, irreplacably, irrevocably in love with you! And there is absolutely no problem with that!

Anecdote:
She: But what do I say to him??

Me: That you're madly, irreplacably, irrevocably in love with him! What else?!

She: Hmm, hadn't thought of it in that way. . . ;)

:(

I do want to say sorry to you. And to you n you n you. I'm sorry I couldn't be good enough to get selected. I'm ok with it, honestly. But I don't like the feeling that I've let you down.
So sorry.. :(

Thankkieeee! ;)

So I'm not on the position I wanted. And I have backache n a bit of flu. And there's this scene of one sided mushy love.
Hmmm...

But on the plus side, I have at least a gazillion reasons to be happy, and I choose to be that, now and forever. :)

Thank you to not being a TL, you make me realize there are so many ways left for me to improve, n that there are lots of cool thongs to doin life.
Thank you back pain, I see that I need to start taking care of myself more and not take burdens so seriously.
Thanks flu, I know that back pain isn't the worst thing on the world. ;) n that there are easy cures to some things at least.
And as for mushy one sided love, u make me a better n more loving person; able to understand and accept so much more than I could otherwise. And u make me happy by just knowing you exist. And I appreciate all the chnhes u bring within me. :)

Your existence makes me want to be a better person. Everyday, everytime.
And I love u for that (too) :) .

My mind still tells me to just let it go. And the heart refuses (except when it agrees, but isn't able to do it anyway).

Hmmm. . . looks like this is taking longer than I thought. Need to find something that would take me away (although, DO I want to be taken away?)

It's not pessimistic to say that nothing is going to work out (like magic!), just realistic (ugh, not one of my strongest points!).

Let time take it's own time to get me through this. Coz I know it's love forever, just hoping it can mature to a admiration-and-friendship-only based love. . eventually.

;)

I think everyone knows by now! Except maybe. . . you. :P

But that doesn't change anything. Nothing is changing anything (drat) coz I still feel the same (mostly. . whenever I'm not in denial).