Unsure of where this life is leading, trying to remove you from my thoughts every second, trying to believe that the world is good, that people are not perfect. Trying to love who I am but pursue what I want. Changing each moment, but stagnating at each step.
You are not going to be a part of my thoughts each and every second anymore. You love someone, and it's perfectly for me to not know who she is. Attempting to not care either.
Different goals. Different desires and ideals. Different values. A different me, who is not going to stop no matter what. Attempting to become a 'me' I never thought I would even want to. But becoming it all the same, coz that's who I need to be, and in a weird twisted way, I want to be now.
Life as I know it is being destroyed, right this very minute.
Rebuilding the world. This time, without a 'you' in it.
Because the beauty of love is too painful. It's not something I want in my life anymore. Today onwards, 'you' are just you [the you that is used for everyone, not setting you apart any more].
Dark and twisted within, bottled up pain, trying to not let it overflow, believing it to be over-rated. Pushing myself to achieve more than what you thought I could, because I'm not just a 'someone' in this world, even though you may feel I am.
Away from the beauty of love, building a reality that would be beautiful someday. . .
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