Searching for a relationship with love.

Feeling like a star-struck, idealistic kid in love!

Thinking of 'interesting perspectives' on love, life and some people [yeah, those quotation marks aren't for everyone to understand, just 1 person!]

I know my heart's full of love, I just don't know if I am in love! The feeling is simple, very simple, it's just that the situation isn't.

Everything feels very idealistic sometimes, perhaps I am idealistic sometimes. But randomness seems to be the only thing ideal in life too.

It seems like everything has a meaning hidden from me. Every look, every second that a gaze lasts longer than it should, every nuance, every touch seems to mean more than it probably should. Probably I'm over-analyzing. And yeah, tonight is the night I decide to give up. Nope, I'm not a quitter, I just know when it's time to let go. At least, I believe it's time. Hadn't even thought of giving up till I wrote it down. Perhaps it's a sign that I should.

Holding on to something that doesn't exist stops something that does exist from manifesting! When you surrender something, you automatically gain something, even though you may not see it then.

Right now, it seems like everyone around me is in love, or at least has a special someone, or at least a person they can say that they're in love with. Me? Well. . . perhaps it's time for a journey with myself. To discover what my relationship with love is. Nah, not to find out what love is. . that's not something that a person has to find out! Love just is, and it's just felt.
The journey maybe, or just get time off to do other things that I've thought of doing for a long time! Like studying [hah!], reading, doing up my room and a zillion other things!
It's time to let go, coz by holding on, I'm stopping the energy flow.

Especially since where I'm trying to hold on is already in love with 'someone else'. Gosh, those dreaded words. . sigh. . . [note: melodrama!].

So yeah, now I've got a warm, fuzzy feeling within me that's a bit love-ish and rather happy-ish. But it's also a sad one. Umm. . . teary at least! ;)

Perhaps I should try to be a cynic towards love for a while. Maybe one needs to be a cynic sometimes to be able to appreciate something. Perhaps I will. . . and it doesn't mean that won't believe in love! Can't live like that. ;)

It's sort of weird to feel cynical and love-ish at the same time though. . . It feels like I'm looking at a mystical world through rose tinted glasses and know that I don't belong there. And somehow, somewhere in my heart, I know that what I'm seeing is not what love actually is. Love doesn't have to be a different world, it becomes everything that's already there in yours. It doesn't need rose tinted glasses to look beautiful, it already is beautiful! Love never has to be anything, it just is!

Gonna live the simplest feeling in my life. . . and gonna give love a chance to happen once more in my life.

It takes no time at all to fall in love, and it takes years for someone to know what love is!