Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Hope? Despair?


Hope?
Are we supposed to live in hope or realize that there's no point in hoping anymore and should just come to terms with despair in life?

What does one do when one is forced to accept an unacceptable situation that they reallyyyy cannot change! Despite their efforts and changes in mindsets, if nothing works, then what does one do? What does one do if it breaks their heart to see the situation get worse each day?

How does one accept the unacceptable and still say that life is wonderful and believe it?! How can a person go through each day with misery and helplessness, knowing they can't do much about it anyway? What if they can't change their mindsets about it either? What does a person do when they don't have the strength to hope anymore? When hope seems to have been extinguished like a candle. . .

Is a person still supposed to hope in a hopeless situation or should they lay down all defenses and come to terms with the despair that permeates their life? I could hope, I know I can. But I wonder if I still should. Is it worth hoping once more for something I know I can't do anything about? Something that I can't really live with, but haven't ever been able to change? Should I hope for something that has never even borne the slightest result till now? Should I hope for life being 'perfect'? Coz that's the only problem that I'm facing that disturbs me. Any other issue is a part of life and I can live with. Any other problem is a challenge and makes life more wonderful and perfect with the experiences. . . But THIS? What do I do about this? I can't change it. I can't accept it. I can hope. . but should I? Dare I hope once again or should I just sit dispassionately and let life run it's course while I continue to do whatever I can without letting it affect me? Coz I know I won't stop doing whatever I can to make it work, but I also know that it's going to hurt if it doesn't work. Should I be dispassionate about it and not let it affect me, or should I still hope? Most of the actions would remain the same, it's the state of mind that I can't seem to be able to decide upon.

Does a person continue to hope in such a scenario? Or should I shut out that part of my heart, never to let anyone get close enough to know about it ever again? Keep it buried so deep that the hope dies and I can live with quiet surrender to it all. . ?

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