Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Connected. . . now?

I can't understand it. Why does death seem just so. . . final? My mind understands that it isn't; that there will be more lives and more time with these loved ones later. My heart understands it. It understands what's pure will stay forever. My soul understands it, because it is an eternal being and can tap into universal consciousness. . . Then WHAT part of me doesn't understand? Why does death still make me feel torn apart?

Today I realized that you don't need to know someone to grieve for them. Genuinely grieve, not just tears. And it doesn't need to be someone famous. It doesn't need to be someone you've idolized all your life. It doesn't need to be someone exceptional according to the world. It can be someone who has lived a wonderfully enriched life, being a lively person, full of love and keeping the family together. It can be someone who has touched his relatives hearts in the way they are right now. Someone who's daughter can feel physical pain because he's no more.

And it feels odd today, having not met such a wonderful individual, yet to grieve for him. I don't know where this sorrow is coming from, but I can feel it. Collective human consciousness? Maybe. Or perhaps I can connect to the pain of what losing that relationship would be like, because I cannot even dare to imagine.

And what's freaky is that life goes on. We move on, and most of the world does not even know what's happened. People are still caught up with exams, worried about deadlines, and blah blah. Somehow you want the world to shut up and realize the magnitude of what's happened. And they don't.

What's un-understandable is what to even say in such a situation. A person feels so helpless, unable to console, unable to say anything right, because there is nothing 'right' that can be said at this time.

And it makes me wonder how we are so connected that we can grieve for an unknown person (albeit known and loved by one of our loved ones) and yet we don't understand the interconnectedness of life at ordinary points of time in our lives.

Grieving right now, for a good man. And for relationships that were, the hurt that will remain. But yes, the love will last forever.

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